Easing Heel Pain and Anxiety with Turmeric ft. Solgar Full Spectrum Circumin

*this is a sponsored post, however all views and opinions are my own*

Along with being responsible for giving curry its absolutely gorgeous vibrant yellow color, turmeric has been used as a medicinal spice in India for thousands of years, but has just begun gaining popularity in the states over the past several years: and for great reason! This powerhouse spice and its medicinal compounds- circuminoids, especially circumin, are jam packed with proven benefits, from anti infmalitory, to improving sleep, to even improving brain function, it’s no wonder people can’t stop raving! You can read more about the benefits of turmeric here.

I have been taking turmeric supplements with mixed results over the course of about 3 years, and recently had the pleasure of trying the Curcumin with 185x bioavailability (or, how well it is absorbed into your body) by Solgar, and I cannot say enough wonderful things about it!

If you’ve followed me for a while, you know that I am very open about living with my anxiety and depression. Taking this supplement for about a month now, I’ve found major improvements in my mood and overall mental health.

Another significant improvement has been in my feet. I’ve been experiencing achey feet every morning and night since about the beginning of the year, and more recently severe heel pain in the morning. I’ve tried orthopedic shoes, massaging, and muscular hemp oil, which help over time. With this Circumin I find the acheyness subsided within about an hour.

Now obviously I am no medical expert, and don’t claim to be. And these are only MY experiences, so it may be different for everyone. However, with all of the research that is available today on the benefits of Turmeric, it is definitely worth trying!

You can order this specific Circumin from Solgar, which I can happily and honestly say is the best that I’ve tried to date, on Vitacost.com !

CBD Oil for Anxiety

*full disclosure: this is a sponsored post. All views and opinions are my own*.

I have been looking into trying out CBD (cannabidiol) oil for over a year now, and recently got the opportunity to try out the CBD Hemp Oil from CBD Bio Naturals.

CBD is a naturally occurring compound found within the hemp plant, that has been found to contain many healing properties.

Before I get into what I thought about this product, let’s break down 1) why I wanted to try it and 2) the apparent benefits of CBD.

The Why: I will be the first to admit that I was one of “those” people that was super anti-anything related to marijuana. It was so taboo for me. Several situations from my adolescence had skewed my view on the topic, and I wasn’t budging- I still to this day have never tried marijuana. However, I prefer to try natural remedies first when possible, and over the past few years people had mentioned that I may benefit from its healing properties and after doing MUCH research (and after the legalization of recreational use in my state- helping with my taboo mindset), I realized hemp CBD (which is derived from the male hemp plant and does not contain THC (the psychoactive chemical compound that makes you “high”) found in the female marijuana CBD) may just be the perfect thing for treating my anxiety, depression, and migraines.

The Benefits: I am seriously no expert on the topic, so here are some of the benefits of this CBD oil straight from the website:

Heart

CBD may improve heart function and prevent heart disease.*

 

Lungs

Early studies show that CBD might inhibit the spread of cancer cells to other areas of the body, especially agressive breast
cancer tumor cells.*

 

Stomach

May relieve nausea and vomiting due to chemotherapy. Promotes a normal appetite. MCT oil is naturally antibacterial and antiviral and may help to promote a healthy digestive system by fighting bad bacteria.*

 

Brain

May reduce feelings of anxiety and promote relaxation
Some studies show CBD also relieves symptoms of schizophrenia and can seizures in some people.*

 

Colon

CBD has been shown to reduce inflammation, and may offer relief for those with inflammatory bowel diseases such as Crohn’s, IB, UC.*

 

Liver

MCT oil is easy to digest and is suitable for those with digestive problems or have gallbladder problems. MCTs are
processed by the liver, so they are easily absorbed and provide sustained energy, without raising blood sugar levels.
CBD also reduces liver inflammation and may keep your liver healthy.

 

 

 

See what I mean?? So- I gave it a try and here is what I thought.

The oil comes in a dropper bottle, meant to be portioned into doses of 1 dropper full at a time, 1 to 2 times a day or as needed. You place the drops under your tongue and hold for 60 seconds (best & fastest way for the oil to absorb into the bloodstream).

I tried my first dose first thing in the morning, and within 10 minutes, my constant buzzing of anxiety had calmed way down. I always wake up with this fluttery anxious feeling, and it definitely helped to settle that feeling. I felt calm & relaxed (to be clear, it was not a high** feeling…rather, feeling at ease or content). This feeling lasted throughout the better part of half of the day. I knew right away that this was a game changer for me. I tried several doses this way (over a week or so) and also tried it in my cup of coffee in the morning. Both produced the same results.

I also brought the drops with me to our recent trip to Disneyland. I kept them in the safe in the room, and took a dropper before leaving. I typically do NOT handle crowds well, and will have anxiety attacks, feelings of claustrophobia, and sometimes even avoid the crowds all together. My anxiety has heightened ten fold over the past few years, in light of all of these crazy events in the world. If I needed to be SOLD on this product- this was the situation to do it.

I took my drops about half an hour before leaving the hotel, and by the time we got to the gate, I felt…NORMAL. Not anxious, not constantly watching everyone else….but normal. Again – I did NOT feel like I was under the influence of anything, this CBD does not contain any of those kinds of chemicals. I just felt at ease. Not high…just normal.

I am 100% convinced that CBD does in fact contain many health benefits. And I am proof that it DOES work!

If you are on the fence about trying CBD for your anxiety- I just want to encourage you to give it a try, and see for yourself how amazing it really is.

Thank you so much to CBD Bio Naturals for partnering with me on this blog post, and gifting my this awesome product to try.

*I am in no way a medical professional. The statements made in this post are not meant to treat or diagnose any issue. Please see your doctor before making decisions related to your health.*

On Chasing Wellness + Why I Write

Being a mom is without a shadow of a doubt the greatest gift I’ve ever been given. I love my kids from the depths of my heart, and I wouldn’t trade being their mom for anything. 

I love the way they laugh, the way their eyes light up when they’re telling me a story, the way they run to me when they fall. I love the way they look at the world, and the way they were born with kind hearts, and the way they wake up and climb straight into bed with us. I love them, and that will never change. Period.

That being said, it’s not always rainbows and sunshine, and being a mom can also have its challenges .

Some of you know by now that I’ve been on a road to wellness, initiated by a bumpy road with my health (physical and mental) since having my sweet little twinlettes two years ago. If not- surprise, you do now ;).

Between swapping out products for clean alternatives ( going to share a post on some of my favs soon!), taking time to rest, focusing on eating real foods & supplements , visiting my doctors regularly for blood tests, exams, (and an upcoming surgery…more on that some other time), I’ve been feeling mostly better; but I’m not 100% yet, and every day comes with new struggles, but I’m always chasing after wellness.

I talk about it more in depth on my secondary Instagram account @fitishkimi (which I am considering just merging into my main account for the sake of “one-less-thing”…thoughts?)if you want to know more specifics, but for a brief run down so you know WHY I am on this quest to a healthier me: I have always struggled with anxiety and it hit a pretty scary (for me) tipping point coupled with depression last year. It snowballed into 4 rounds of bronchitis within a few months, adrenal fatigue, and hormone imbalances among other things, and I got sick and tired of always being sick and  tired.

I’m still working towards finding balance and breaking bad habbits, working towards making time for self care, clearing out mental clutter & negative self talk that I’ve held onto for way too long…towards finding energy and motivation to get moving more with my always aching body, and to also sometimes being okay resting in the stillness that often comes instead.

It’s an uphill battle, and one that I know could always be worse and for that I am thankful. But it’s one I’ve committed the past two years of my life to, and don’t intend to ever give up fighting for myself.

Now, I want to also address the fact that I’m a sharer and I need you to know that it is not just for me. Yes, I do love to write because it helps to calm the constant racing thoughts/ anxiety…it’s therapeutic, and also I like to look back and read years later, because my memory is complete shit and there are things I don’t want to forget (pretty much 90% of why I love Instagram so much; it’s my photo diary).

Honestly though, at times I am extremely self conscious about sharing personal experiences & thoughts (and what I do share is usually just the tip of the iceberg and if you want to message me to dig deeper, I’m always open to that) because I don’t want to be judged, or I don’t want my intentions to be misconstrued, or I don’t want to sound…I don’t even know.

I try to keep things positive for the most part, but that’s not always me, that’s not always life. Because I also want to be an open book. I feel strongly in sharing my experiences in hopes that if anyone out there is in the same boat, it helps you, on some level, to feel a little bit less isolated and alone. I know the feeling well and I want you to know you are worth fighting for.

And it may not always be rainbows and sunshine, but there are still bits of sunshine between the clouds. And you may not know me, but I know how it feels. And I want you to know that. And you are not alone. And that’s why I write.

How to be Present as a Work at Home Mom

 


It’s been about 2 1/2 years since “officially” leaving my previous 9-5 employer of 8 years. I was put on bed rest during my twin pregnancy in January ’15, welcomed my little preemies to the world that March, and resigned that July.  Staying home to raise our kids was the best decision my husband and I have ever made for our family, but it has no doubt been a challenge…and, I say that with total gratitude and in the best way possible.

Anyone with kids understands that being a parent is totally a thankless job. It’s kind of just part of the gig. It’s what we sign up for. And whether you work out of the home, stay at home, or work from home, I believe it’s indeed the single most important position we as parents will hold in our lifetimes.

I have been on all sides of the above (as far as working situations go) in my short 4 and something years as a mother, and all have their ups and downs, and one is no more or less acceptable or okay than the other. We’re all just trying to do the best we can for our kids, and I love that.

Now, I just have to say that I won’t try to pretend that I have it all together, because truth is- most days I flounder about & fail five times times before I succeed. But that’s all part of personal growth, and part of teaching my kids that it’s okay make mistakes, as long as we try (and try and try..) to do better. Hey, I’m human …and unless there’s some new crazy robotics technology that I’m not aware of, I’m pretty sure you are too.

So here is my experience, for whatever it’s worth.

Transitioning from a consistent paycheck, deadlines, and even appreciations for a job well done to 24/7 selflessness and perpetual sleep deprivation is a heavy transition.
Over the past 2.5 years I’ve been consumed with guilt for not “working” (in the traditional sense of course), and overwhelmed with gratitude & humility at the opportunity that has been presented to me to stay home and raise my children- my lifelong dream. I know that none of this would be possible without having to face the hard challenges that we did, and without the help of my incredibly supportive family. I am forever grateful for the opportunity and know that in this day and age it is so much harder to come by. I don’t want to take that for granted.

This lifestyle has no doubt  taken much sacrifice of not only the life we once lived, but of self, and of expectations.
Most days, I try to fill the time between naps with my odd jobs- lettering and design work, social media consulting, and this blog. And once my husband gets home, my nights are filled with my actual job, doing photography and imaging for a top jewelry retailer, a job I absolutely love.

Doing these things definitely helps with the guilt trips I put on myself, but I have learned that there is definitely an art to balancing the hustle with the little ones still in tow.

It’s hard work to try to do it all. When this work life balance is off kilter, enter the anxiety and the mommy guilt for not feeling present or spending enough time on the house and with the kids.

I put together a simple list of things I do to remind myself to be present while working at home, keeping the balance. Please keep in mind that I am in no way an expert on this topic (an expert at changing diapers maybe, but a life coach I am not!). I am just sharing the things that have worked for me. I hope these tips help you in your work at home journey!:

1. Set work hours:
Give yourself designated hours to work (I know, it’s ALL work when you’re an at home parent…here, I’m talking about your income producing tasks) and stick to them. Whether this means waking up before the kids to check your emails and reply to clients, or going full on after their bed time, do what works for you! It helps you get into that routine again, and the kids know that your work hours are for helping the family. They may still tug on your shirt and want you to play, and that’s okay too. Just get back to it when you can, or start over the next day. It’s a process to adjust to, but it has definitely helped me! I have 3 under 5- an almost 5 year old and 2 year old twins, and they constantly want to play (which I LOVE), so I set my hours for nap time and after bed time so I can be as present as possible while they’re awake.

2.Unplug:
…depending on the type of work you do, of course. For me, this is a no brainer…but sometimes it’s easier said then done. Let family time be family time. When you aren’t working, leave your devices in another room. (Especially during meals and story time!)

3. Get on their level:
It really helps me to sit down on the floor at my kids’ level. I experience the world through their eyes, and am reminded what a precious fleeting season of life this is! While it’s important for you to have something for you (part of why I personally choose to work from home), it’s also extremely important for your kids to know they are your priority. Mine get so excited when I’m down on the ground playing with them, plus I win “cool points”, and as a mom, I can never really get enough of those from my kids…I wonder if I can stockpile a surplus of them for the teenage years to come….is that how that works?

4. Keep a daily schedule:
I started doing this again maybe a week or so ago, and boy- I wish I had done it sooner. This totally streamlines my day! I made a schedule with times, and three different columns (mommy, Jude, and twins- can be edited depending on your kids’ ages to mommy, baby, toddler, etc.) I write out per hour or so what we normally do in each time, and find the slots where I can get my work done while the kids are occupied with other things. This will surely vary based on your situation, and can seem sort of extreme, but for a crazy multitasker with anxiety like myself- it has SO helped. This is not all to say that you have to stick strictly to the schedule (because we ALL know, when a child refuses to nap, all bets are off…), but helps serve as a guide to a productive work day AND a productive parenting day, while still allowing your kids to do their thing. (I will upload a free printable template if there is a desire for it!)

5. Let them “help” you work:
Whenever there are tasks that I can have my almost 5 year old help me with, he jumps on them! Whether it’s stamping or sealing envelopes, picking out designs, offering color suggestions, grabbing me a certain pen or paintbrush- he eats it up! Get them involved and let them know that you value their help and “expertise”.

6. Eat together: 
This is SO important for our family. Even though we moved halfway across the country, are living with family, and have crazy schedules, we have and will always make it a point to sit down and have dinner together. Some nights, my husband may work and it’s just me and the kids, but I so treasure this time with them. My 3 year old and I talk about our day (while I also negotiate with him over taking 5 more bites of his food lol), talk about our feelings, plan exciting and fun things to do for the next day. We are totally in eachothers company, and totally present. It is definitely my favorite part of the day.

7. Breathe & give yourself some grace!: 
I’m going to be real with you. All of these things are awesome, IF you can remember to do them everyday. I am the QUEEN of beating myself up…no really. I am constantly fudging up, giving myself guilt trips and telling myself I’m no good at what I’m doing. I feel guilty for not working, but would feel even more guilty for leaving. I have good days and bad days. But you know what, I have a feeling that THAT’S MOTHERHOOD! Some days are amazing and I am present, and happy, and the kids are happy, and everything flows. Other days, I feel like crying and I want to stay in my sweats all day and binge watch OUAT with a 5 Lb bag of Jelly Bellys (don’t judge me, sister)! If you are still learning this balancing act, which I think, for me at least, is going to be a life long thing- take a step back, take a deep breath, give yourself some grace, and go love on those kids. Remember, you’re doing the best you can. They just want YOU, your love and your attention. They are the reason we do this, after all.

 

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*Thanks for taking the time and reading! Please, say hello! I’d love to hear your thoughts and feedback! Please keep it friendly, this is a community based on support and encouragement ❤️.

Choosing Joy

Getting caught up in the raging rapids of a hectic day is so easy to do. Trust me, I know all too well. It’s so easy to have a day start off on the wrong note…and then to straight up milk it the rest of the day. You woke up twenty minutes late, ugh. You ran out of milk for your coffee, ugh. Your hair is all friggin’ wonky and you just.cant.get your eyeliner to flick out evenly on both sides, UGH. Nothing is going right. You’re irritated as hell, and nothing can change it. So, you carry this nasty chip on your shoulder the rest of the day. You’re mad at the car who waited too long to go when the light turned green, or irritated when you ask a question and don’t get the answer you wanted, or upset that your spouse just.doesnt.get it, or, or, or.
You’re tired. You’re frustrated…..

Let me tell you something; you don’t have to be.

Those moments when you have nothing left to give. When the kids are whining and rolling their little bodies all over the ground in exhaustion. When the dogs are being crazy and won’t stop barking. When the house is a mess and laundry’s unfolded and you’re thinking of all the million things you couldn’t get done. Stop. Take a deep breath, and find the things to smile about. The kids are exhausted from a full day of playing. The dogs are barking because they love you and want to protect you. The house is a mess and things are undone, but you have shelter, and clothes. There is always a bright side when you stop to look for one.

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I know all too well how easy it is to turn a bad moment into a bad day. Choose joy instead. It’s easy to let that feeling of self pity take over and run the show. Don’t let it. Choose joy instead. CHOOSE to wake up and let both feet hit the floor ready for a new adventure. Choose to let the little stuff be just what it is- little. Tell yourself, first thing in the morning, that the day is going to be beautiful, that life is a gift, and that you are going to make the best of WHATEVER comes your way, that it’s a brand.new.day with so much potential. I know that everyone’s walk is different. Some of you may be having the most amazing day of your lives, while others are dealing with things I can’t even begin to imagine….but you’re here, you’re alive. And that… is a beautiful thing. There is SO much beauty in that alone. Do you know how amazing the human body is? Like, really, truly amazing!  What a gift! Isn’t that enough to smile about!? Whatever your circumstance is, I challenge you to choose joy. It’s much harder to stop and intentionally choose, but it’s so worth it. There’s so much good. Stop. Breathe. Find it. Live it.

A Walking Contradiction

Okay, I’m going to be honest here for a minute. I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m 28 and still figuring things out… and that’s okay! Some of you may say “Oh, you’re only 28, you’ve got your whole life to figure it out!” And others, “WOW LADY!!! 28? And you STILL don’t know? I feel sorry for you!…” I get that…probably all too well, because these are the things I tell myself constantly. Here’s the thing, when you have anxiety- your whole day is talking yourself into and out of the random thoughts that pop in your head. You know better, but you can’t help it. It’s exhausting, but I’m worth it.

On a physical level – I’m struggling to lose my baby weight from the twins (born March 2015). I am currently on week 3 of the CIZE program by Shaun T. Most days i’m like YEAH, i’m totally kicking this extra weights @$$, and others, like today I’m at the other end..”you’ve ONLY lost 7 lbs. It’s been 3 weeks. Just give up, it’s not worth it.” See? A walking contradiction…and that’s okay. I will keep going, because I find myself more motivated by the lack of progress than I do discouraged. I will keep feeding my body whole foods and nutrient packed supplements and limit the artificial junk that was never supposed to be made into “food” in the first place. It’s exhausting, but I’m worth it.

On an intellectual level- I find myself torn in two directions when I hear debates on certain topics. Some “hot button” which we won’t get into (this is not the time or place for that), some minuscule and irrelevant. When you’re younger you think you have it all figured out…you’re SO SURE of the things you know…but then…life happens…you SEE things, you experience things…you get married, or buy a house, or start a family…or there’s a traumatic event that happens, or a death…and these things that you thought you knew all of a sudden don’t make any sense. You look back at things you did, or said, and you can’t even stand your old self. “Who WAS that?” you think. You shy away from certain conversations because you don’t know HOW you feel anymore. It’s not so black and white. You see both sides of the story. Maybe I’m not supposed to know? It has affected my confidence in ways I’ve not experienced before…but I’m working on getting it back. I do know that my position on many topics is one of empathy. I do know that LOVE and EQUALITY and JUSTICE will ALWAYS be my heart’s deciding factors. I do know that where there is an injustice, I will be the first person to stand up and say something. I may not KNOW things, but I FEEL, and maybe that should be enough, and maybe I should learn to appreciate that about myself… that I feel deeply. It’s exhausting, but it’s worth it.

I DO know that I was fearfully and wonderfully made, that I was a lost and lonely sinner and by some amazing miracle I was saved by grace, by Love Himself.  I was created to pour that love & light into the world around me. That I’m sure of. I know that I am undeserving and broken, but through His love I am made whole. My heart knows, my soul knows. And in these moments of anxiety, I will let that be enough. il_fullxfull.559429966_bk2m